You know when you write a blog post and it gets deleted no thanks to the Internet going in and out?? Yea so that happened. I finished writing this very blog post, and went to save it to realize that well…the Internet decided be annoying. Talk about irritating right? However, this goes well with my topic for this post: “It’s ok to not be ok.” At the beginning of lockdown, I was very optimistic about how to keep busy and productive so our minds are active and engaged. Nevertheless, what I didn’t account for those random annoying moods that creep in: like feelings of restlessness, going a little crazy just being at home, not wanting to do anything “productive”, etc. You know-those moods that make us human instead of superhuman.
I have definitely experienced all of these feelings. Lately I’ve found myself going in circles. I have days where my energy is super productive, and other days where I just want to Netflix and Chill all day. About every month and a half or so, I get a little stir crazy and all I want to do is travel and get out of the house, which is obviously not the smart choice right now. And then there are days where I just cannot concentrate on my work so I get distracted with Netflix. Right now, btw, I’m watching The Umbrella Academy-does that ring a bell for anyone? That being said having the routine helps but then there is the part of me where it just feels the same all the time, and at that point I’m just looking for some kind of change. My Mon-Sat often feels like I’m literally doing the same thing day and day out, and I could use some spontaneity.
So given the circumstances, what is the solution right now? Well, thankfully I have a husband and a wonderful group of friends who I either meet, or talk to, or drive around with. So that definitely helps to add a bit of spontaneity. So whenever you’re in that “blah mood” just remember it’s perfectly normal. These pandemic times are not normal circumstances so there’s no way we should expect ourselves to be normal. Therefore, if you need to just take that break: go for it. Watch a show, take a walk, call a friend-any little bit helps! Remember, It’s OK NOT TO BE OK.