As I sit here writing this, I am exactly 13 weeks pregnant, wrapping up my 1st trimester. By the time you read this, it will be much much later. However, as I sit here in September 2020, I have so many thoughts going through my head: relief, exhaustion, and feeling so so blessed. So I found out I was pregnant in my 2nd month. My husband came home and had a weird intuition I was pregnant and encouraged me to take a test. Frankly, I thought that he was talking nonsense, but I took the test anyways.
So unlike the American tests, where you pee on a stick and the result shows up; the Indian home tests require your to pee in a cup or bowl and extract it with a syringe type tool and place it on the stick. So after I peed, I handed my husband the materials and made him do the test for me. So long story short-he told me I was pregnant, and EVEN THEN, I didn’t believe him. So I took the 2nd test and then it started to sink in, and I went from “oh shit” to “omg” over and over.
The first trimester bought with it two very challenging aspects: slowing down and keeping my mouth shut. My body was so so exhausted all the time, that I was taking naps ranging from 30 minutes to two hours every single day, and falling asleep again at 9 p.m. I am a very “go-go-go” type person. I’m used to making my schedule everyday and checking off my tasks as I finish them. The first trimester threw that out the window. I had to take time to listen to my mind and body and take that necessary rest. My body is building a baby so some exhaustion will come somewhere right? So therefore, I had to slow down, and keep reminding myself that there is a lot happening inside of me, and I should honor that and take the rest I need.
The other thing I learned was to keep quiet. Hiding my pregnancy from my friends and all of you was the hardest thing ever. Of course, until everything was medically ok, it was wise for me to keep my mouth shut-but it was a struggle for sure. I’m so happy I’m finally able to share my journey with all of you now! I feel it makes it that much sweeter. Even with nobody knowing, my anxiety kept going up and down: Whether or not everything is ok, if I’m eating and doing the right thing-all sorts of questions kept coming up. Thankfully affirmations helped me thru this time significantly.
Now, that my 1st trimester is coming to a close, I cannot be more grateful. As I grow, I’m using this time to discover maternity wear and pregnancy friendly fashion as the season begins to change. So stay tuned for those recommendations! Talk soon!